i'm not fine
fuck pretending

i'm simplifying myself
cause you're too complicating

be quiet now
let go
these things are not for you
be quiet now
you can't hear me cause i'm whispering
dead on the floor
but it doesn't matter
i stood still but nothing changed
i danced around but then you came
and i felt down and broke my neck
hey don't worry i'll be alright
cause it's just a ride
now be quiet 
i've walked too much again
and i'm tired as a beating heart
beaten half to death
i don't care now
silence blood 
i quit 

believe in nothing and you might get through with it
cause believing in love believing in faith didn't bring us much
take a look a round


yes
i am a negative creep
and i love you all

wait edit


did i mean that ?
why do i bother myself?
with all of you
i should just be alone instead
fuckheart fuckheart fuckheart

leave alone the hopes and the dreams
if i could just undress these words
they would stand naked
for they are only razors that cut
turn numb and you turn happy
just get me for once...

goddamn it open your eyes and hear!!!

"The Downtown"

I know a town where people are running
Away from life - it seems always funny
They think they are smart
Don't doubt what they say
Scared of a change
Existing only

To bring me down

Thoughtless in heart - desperate in honesty
Failed from the start - wasted and suffering
Supply them their drugs - just don't take them away
Scared of a change
Existing only

To bring me down

I don't feel like i should even worry about you
But i take the time and you push me away
I don't care too much no more
I always seem to waste my breath
Go my own way

Bring me down
Yeah, bring me down

i'm dead in the water
breathing anxieties
autumn came and i'm all new to this
my stomach, my fears
i see failure smiling with big bright black eyes
i hope somebody understands this
i hope you can see through me
and if i give you my lips
you won't mind to drink
wings made out of raining window views
buried my heroes a long time ago
and now i see my veins like rear view mirrors
and they blink at me, to remember and i cry
it takes me down
deeper as i start to think
all of me all of this
broken math

so an angel might come
and will ask to share my sins
so i would feel someone else is like me
so that it might feel something real
exchange me
i'm leaving me...