reinventing new ways
to hurt its other
so much blood
so many tears
if this a game
then you can win by default
the prize is yours

my grey colors
wasting away
rotting inside my sighing
hopeless my every breath
hiding my break down
behind endless cigarettes

i try to swallow
the knots in my neck
the bitterness
the sadness
that rule in my head
i fall and collapse
i stand up but i crash
do you understand?