ascarletocean

2011-12-11T15:28:00.001+02:00

i've slept out all my dreams

and now i pretend i can't sleep

set my heart into an organ collector

you can't touch me, i'm made out of reflections

i have a breath of an ocean

i have the eyes of a horizon

i am nothing at all

the needle and the sun

your skin and the swarm

i could have held on you

i could have saved myself

still i try to live with some hopes

i have till now 31 broken bones

but this time did it

i got tired of the knot

i took a knife

and slashed my throat

2011-08-23T01:31:00.000+03:00

and I end up here again
within my palms

2011-08-16T05:29:00.001+03:00

ολες μαζι, απογοητευσεις
ακομα και τωρα εισαι λυπημενος

δεν υπαρχει αλλη επανασταση
δεν υπαρχει αλλο ονειρο
μας κουρασαν

δεν μπορω αλλο να βλεπω
γειτονιες, πολυκατοικιες, σπιτια
ολα αυτα καποτε δεν θα υπαρχουν
μισοκρεμισμενα, γκρι, παρτιτουρες τσιμεντο
δεν ειναι αναγκη να ειναι τιποτα ετσι

ο αυγουστος και οτι θα ερθει μετεπειτα

τουλαχιστον μπορω να δω να ξημερωνει
και μαρεσει ολη αυτη η ησυχια
και νιωθω παλι παιδακι

ολες αυτες οι πολλαπλες πραγματικοτητες
οι απειρες επιλογες
που νομοιζεις οτι πρεπει να κανεις και πως να εισαι
σε στεγνωνουν
ολα αλλαζουν και συ πρεπει να το δεχτεις
διαλεξε την αγαπημενη σου διασταση
και συντονισου στον Κοινο Νου
συνδεση

2011-06-01T00:10:00.000+03:00

pass me throught
the last man
the saddest one

gone wasted and nothing done
still dreaming of something
i'm out of words
and i'm dry as 2 month old widow

stay with me

2011-06-01T00:02:00.002+03:00

we passed throught the galaxies
and drunk all that was to taste
the afternoon is orange and we've got all the answers
right now
the line comes to an end
and we must turn away
we must free and devine and pure
1.46 infra 7
my wrists are open
and my eyes are bright
and my chest is cracking
and i feel as whole
what's better, a revelation or a suicide
if the body is a temple
i don't care if i'm a king or slave
i don't know what's the meaning
just fucking kill the priest

2011-05-21T21:35:00.002+03:00

and so
i'm 31 now.

2011-04-13T16:43:00.005+03:00

ειμαι και κουλτουριαρης
και παιρνω
και το bus.

Από τον στοχασμό σου
……πήζει
………..ο ήλιος
μες στο ρόδι
κι ευφραίνεται

2011-04-05T12:16:00.002+03:00

自殺
冗談
チョコレート
イチゴ

Tim Hecker - The Piano Drop

2011-03-17T14:30:00.002+02:00

2011-03-17T13:40:00.002+02:00

2011-03-17T13:39:00.002+02:00

2011-03-17T11:55:00.000+02:00

Ελλαδα, η χωρα της αντιφασης

diαβασεto

ΜΕΡΟΣ ΤΕΤΡΑ..2ΥΓ

2011-03-17T11:22:00.002+02:00

ΜΕΡΟΣ ΙΙΙΙ

Καποιος για μενα, δεν θελω να κανω καμια διαφορα, σταματησα να με νοιαζει, τωρα καθομαι οργανικος, καπνιζω και σε ακουω, τραγουδας παρεα με ολους αυτους, τους δικους μου, που με μεγαλωσαν. Χορευω καθιστος και δεν ξερω τι θελω να πω. Ειμαι με ολα συνδεδεμενος και με τιποτα, μονος και με ολους σας. Θελω να μυρισω. Καμια εκλογη, καμια επιλογη. Πως να σου μεταδωσω, πως να με γλυκανεις και πως να αρκεστουμε με αυτα που εχουμε. Και τι λοιπον? Να ειμαι εδω και να αναπολω αναμνησεις που ποτε δεν υπηρξαν. Ειμαστε ολοι αυτοι που σας εξυπηρετουμε πισω απο καθε ακουστικο, πλενουμε τις βρωμιες σας, μαζεουμε τα σκουπιδια σας, κανουμε τους καφεδες σας και ικανοποιουμε την λαιμαργια σας για οτι σας γκαβλωσει. Κρυμεννοι.

Τσατιζομαι που με περιοριζει αυτος ο τροπος, εδω τωρα, εκφρασης. Πληκτρολογιο, μολυβι, χαρτι, γραμμες αυτες οι γαμημενες γραμες, αυτο το πλαισιο επικολησεις ηλιθιων σκεψεων ειναι λειψως. Και οι λεξεις δεν φτανουν και αν υπαρχουν και αλλες, τοτε δεν τις εμαθα ποτε. Πως να συγχρονησουμε τις ανασες και τους παλμους μας? Να κοιμομουν για παντα ή να μην νυσταζα ποτε?

ΜΕΡΟΣ ΙΙΙΙΙ

Δινω πολλα, δινω λιγα. Στροβιλιζω πανω στο κρεβατι σου, δεν μιλαω για να μην σε πιεζει ο αερας που ξεφυσαω. Αλλο ενα παιχνιδι, αλλη μια δικαιολογια. Δεν ειμαι αυτο που χρειαζεσαι, μοιαζω για περαστικος. Ολα περνανε, ολα ειναι μεσα στην ζωη, μου λες. Γερασα για να ειμαι μερος σου, και μερος της παρεας σου. Καλυτερα να εξαφανιστω. Ο καφες με φερνει ταχυπαλμιες, πλεω μεσα στους καπνους, και δεν ξερω αν πρεπει να κοιμηθω καλυτερα, δεν εχω σε ποιον να μιλησω, και βαριεμαι να σκοτωνω αυτους...δεν καταλαβαινω, και πρεπει να παω στην αλλη πλευρα σιγα σιγα. Προσπαθω να μην κανω τιποτα. Παρατα τα. Σπασε ενα κομματι σου και ελα πιο κοντα μου. Δεν μακους, δεν σακουω. Η επικοινωνια αυτη ειναι λαθος, ο πομπος και ο δεκτης, τα συρματοπλεγματα ειναι φθαρμενα, και τα κορακια τρομαζουν τα περιστερια. Δεν υπαρχει αναγκη για τιποτα στο τελος. Δεν ειμαι για κανεναν. Ο κυκνος ειναι μαυρος και η λιμνη ξερη. Σε πνιγω μεσα στα φτερα μου, θα κλεισω τα ματια μου και καψω την γλωσσα μου, θα σπασω το ραμφος μου και θα αγορασω μια μασκα που θα σου ταιριαζει. Γυρνα τον ηλιο αναποδα και δες με τωρα.

Απλα θελω να ειναι καποιος για μενα εδω , απλα θελω να ειμαι για καποιον εκει

ΜΕΡΟΣ ΙΙΙΙΙΙ

Κατω απτο δερμα σου, κολυμπαει μεσα στα χειλει σου. Κερασια. Με καιει το στομαχι μου και δεν μπορω να σταματησω να καπνιζω, οι πατουσες μου ειναι παγωμενες, τα ματια μου πρισμενα.

Τι περιμενουμε, τι εχω να χασω? Τι να κανω αν χασω τον εαυτο μου? Μια κουβερτα, δωρο απο καπου, μικρη. Πειναω παλι, δεν εφαγα και τιποτα σημερα. Ο πονος ειναι η καλυτερη διαιτα. Το παιξα αρρωστος και δεν πηγα στην δουλεια. Δεν κοιμηθηκα καθολου ολο το βραδυ, ηθελα να ουρλιαξω, να τσακισω τους καρπους μου, να λιωσω τα δαχτυλα μου, και να καψω το στρομα. Λιγο απτον αερα σου, λιγο απτους οκεανους σου, να κρυφτουμε στην ταρατσα σου. Δεν περιμενω να κοιμηθω καλα σημερα, κανε το κεφι σου, και δωσμου λιγη ασφαλεια και ασε λιγο τα ματια σου να κοιτανε το κορμι μου μεχρι να με παρει ο υπνος. Ειμαι ενα κενο αερος, ενα μαυρο συννεφο, μια μαυρη τρυπα, ενα νεκρο αστερι, ενας πλανητης διχως οξυγονο, μια λυσσασμενη γρια χωρις την μπουκαλα της, ενα κερι χωρις φωτια, και ολα αυτα που δεν ειμαι και δεν εχω τα κλεβω απο σενα. Σαν μια κουρασμενη γερικη γατα, ξαπλωνω στο στηθος σου οταν κοιμασαι και σου κλεβω την ανασα. Περιμενω να πεθανω σε λιγο.

Ενα μπισκοτο σοκολατα, ξερω παλι τι εκανες, εχω το νουμερο σου.

ΜΕΡΟΣ 1(Β)

2011-03-17T11:20:00.002+02:00

Ενα ξερο στομα. Υπαρχει μονο αιμα, και τιποτα αλλο. Βλεπεις μια πεδιαδα με τουλιπες, γκρι πορτοκαλι, σου λειπει το δερμα της, τα εκανες ολα ψευτικα για να μπορεις να τα πιστεψεις καλυτερα. Δεν σε κατηγορω. Θελεις να μεινεις μονος μεσα σε ενα σκοταδι, και να φτιαξεις εναν αλλον ηλιο, πιο ζεστο. Που ειναι οι σημαιες σου, και που ειναι οι εκστρατιες σου? Κανε τα χερια σου απειρα και ελα πιασε με.

Ολα ειναι απλος εγωισμος και ανασφαλιες, τα μαγουλα της ειναι παντα ζεστα και κοκκινα.

Η ερωτηση ειναι.

Ασε με και μην με πλησιαζεις, ηθελα να σε δαγκωσω αλλα δεν βρηκα ευκαρια. Ειμαι δειλος, εισαι πανεμορφη.

Το αζοτο του εδαφους μυριζει, και μου θυμιζει το χωριο μου, και γλυκους χειμωνες. Γυριζω τριγυρο και προσπαθω ξανα και ξανα, γινε ενας φαρος, αν γινω η σταχτη στα μαλλια σου. Οι αιώνες σου περικυκλώνουν τους κλώνους μου, και οι κύκνοι μου σου χαδευουν τις μέλισσες σου.

ΜΕΡΟΣ 4 (ΙΙΙ)

2011-03-17T11:19:00.000+02:00

Όλα είναι λάθος μαθημένα, και κάθε φορά πρέπει να κάθεσαι να αναλογίζεσαι τα πάντα και

τις αποφάσεις σου. Ότι νομίζεις ότι είναι σωστό ή λάθος, και κάθε φορά είσαι πάλι απτήν αρχή

Κουρασμένος Μου λείπουν τα παρασκευοσαββατα, το μεθύσι μέχρι το πρωί, δεν με νοιάζει αν είναι χειμώνας ή καλοκαίρι, απλά μαρεσει όταν ξημερώνει με τους ανθρώπους που αγαπάω αυτήν την εκείνη την δεδομένη στιγμή, που είμαι μαζί τους. Ολα μας συνδεουν και ειμαστε ενα μεταξυ μας, εχουμε τοσα να μοιραστουμε και να νιωσουμε. Αλλα θα ειναι μονο γιαυτο το ξημερωμα, ισως παλι σε καποιοις μηνες, χρονια ή και ποτε. Τοχω συνηθησει πλεον τωρα στα 30 μου, αυτες οι ευθηγραμμισεις των ψυχων. Ολα ειναι για λιγο και ολα ειναι για παντα, δεν μπορουν να με στεναχωρουν...νομοιζω δηλαδη. Ολοι ειναι μακρια, αν ειμασταν ολοι μαζι παντα ισως βαριομασταν, ισως καλυτερα ετσι, τουλαχιστον εχουμε κατι να πουμε ουσιαστικο. Μου λειπουν οι αληθηνες σηζητησεις. Ποσα χαραμισα? Απο ολα τα πραγματα? Δεν ειναι σωστη η λεξη πραματα, γιατι δεν μπορω να συμπεριλαβω, αισθηματα, ανθρωπους, καταστασεις, ιστοριες, κτλπ. Δεν θελω να ξεχασω αλλα δεν θελω και να θυμαμαι. Καποιο νοημα να βρεις, το τελος του κατι, και ολα αυτα τα διαφορα, απαντασεις, ερωτησεις. Ολα αυτα τριγυρο αφθερετα, φθαρμενος.

ΜΕΡΟΣ ΙΙ

2011-03-17T11:16:00.002+02:00

Νυστάζει πάλι., αλλά λες ακόμα ένα τσιγάρο και θα την πέσεις επιτέλους, εξάλλου είναι παρασκευή αύριο...οκ. Θα βαριέσαι να σηκωθεί αύριο το πρωί αλλά δε γαμιέται.

Λένε για το κάρμα, όταν κάνεις κάτι καλό, θα σου γυρίσει πίσω σε κάτι καλό, αλλά εγώ δεν κάνω τίποτα άλλο τον τελευταία καιρό από το να ρίχνω κατάρες στα περαστικά ηλίθια θηλαστικά που περπατάνε στους δρόμους, στα λεωφορεία, τα τρόλεϊ και τα τραμ αυτής της...χμ μπορείς πεις γαμημένη πόλη? Αλλά έχει ωραία σημεία και εικόνες Πάλι κάνα τοστ θα φάω μιας και θα βαριέμαι να μαγειρέψω, α και δημητριακά με γάλα το βράδυ, πριν δω τίποτα ΤΒ ή να ξεθυμάνεις τα αρχίδια σου απ τον βομβαρδισμό γκαβλας, καλά όχι και πάντα αλλά έτσι και αλλιώς σε βοηθάει να κοιμηθείς που και που, και άλλες φορές σε κάνει να ξενυχτας σαν το μαλάκα Θέλω κόκκινα σταφύλια εδώ και τώρα

Κραξε και συ μπορείς, κανε και κανα βλογκ, μπας και τα διαβάσει κανείς

Κάτσε να ανοίξω το την μπαλκονό πόρτα να φύγει η κάπνα Σκότωσα ένα μυγάκι και φαντάζομαι και κάτι ηλίθια μούτρα που βλέπω το πρωί, όταν ξεκινάω να πάω στην δουλειά Δεν έχει σημασία τίποτα, ούτε τα παπούτσια που φοράς ούτε το άρωμα σου, ούτε αυτή η γαμημενη γραβάτα σου.

Λεφτά και μόνο..α ναι και σεξ, μάλλον γαμήσι η χμμ πως να το πω να νιώσεις γαμιάς Κάτσε κάτσε έχεις και IPHONE! Και και τι άλλο χμμ ωραία γυαλικό βλέπω, είσαι άτομο υψίστης πνευματικής αξιας...αχαχαχαχα...γελαω μόνος μου στο τέλος

2011-03-13T02:34:00.001+02:00

Android test posting :)

2011-02-25T10:41:00.000+02:00

lack of posting
new place-home
no internet
stealing from neighbours

2011-01-10T15:25:00.000+02:00

I've dreamed of saving the world
of foreign wars with no hopes
i thought i was a building
with squared-shaped apartments made out of glass
that they could move around my body
i was a math solution
i went through oceans and their cities
and friends with different faces.

i watched for hours the laundry machine
going around and around
sitting on my knees till my back hurt
till my toes turned numb
and sometimes i am ship
and my nose is my body
i have a million pirates on my deck
but i cant navigate
i'm not that captain
please push your weight to left
now to the right side
till we're full
till we're empty again

now days you cry because you know the movie has an end
they should never end
they should never end

Pearl Jam - No Way

2010-12-01T14:23:00.001+02:00

Here's a token of my openness
Of my need to not disappear
How I'm feeling, so revealing to me
I found my mind too clear
I just need someone to be there for.. me
I just want someone to be there for.. me

All the static in my attic-a
Shoots down my sciatic nerve
To the ocean of my platitudes
Longitudes, latitudes, it's so absurd
I just need someone to be there for..
I just want someone to be there for..

Someone to be there for..

'Cause I'll stop trying to make a difference
I'm not trying to make a difference
I'll stop trying to make a difference

No way (2X)

Ooh, let's call in an angel (3X)

'Cause I'll stop trying to make a difference
I'm not trying to make a difference
I'll stop trying to make a difference
No way
'Cause I'll stop trying to make a difference
I’m not trying to make a difference
I’m not trying to make a difference

No way
No way, no way

Let's call in an angel
Who's calling an angel?

2010-11-08T14:05:00.001+02:00

So today Pelecanus.net have started to emit their new radio station through their site. Their playlists are mostly Experimental Rock, Instrumental Rock, Progressive Rock, Shoegaze, Progressive Metal, Post Metal & Post Rock. You can download the station's program here and as you can see a lot of people have been collaborated for this project. Soon Post-Engineering will have its own playlist on the Pelecanus radio, so stay tuned...

We would like to thank William for this new opportunity/challenge and to wish them good luck!

Pelecanus Radio

2010-10-12T02:22:00.000+03:00

Πλύσου
ξυρίσου
άντε και γαμήσου

αυτό είναι μοναξιά
μας έκλεψαν τα σύννεφα
διεφθαρμένα αεροπλάνα
όλοι φεύγουν
μείνε πίσω με τις στάχτες
παιχνίδι-αγόρι
μόνιμη παιδική ζωγραφιά
συνδεδεμένοι ομφάλιοι λώροι σχηματίζουν καταιγίδες
πιάσε γρήγορα τις σταγόνες και σκαρφάλωσε ψηλά
μαμά

2010-09-10T01:57:00.002+03:00

Το είδωλο σου είναι κρυμμένο ανάμεσα σε στοίχους και τραγούδια, που νομίζεις ότι δεν τα καταλαβαίνει κανείς άλλος εκτός σένα. Γίνεσαι φάντασμα. Και ο θεός χαμένος ανάμεσα σε λευκούς ήχους του ραδιοφώνου. Δεν τα παρατάς, απλά το αφήνεις, ποιο απτά δυο σου μοιάζει πως είσαι δυνατός ή δειλός. Δεν έχω αποφασίσει. Πρέπει να πονάω πάντα περισσότερο από σένα, έτσι έχω μάθει.

Το απέραντο σχήμα σου, διάσπαρτα νευρωνικά δίκτυα, ένας μικρός νευρωτικός σπασμένος Ιησούς. Πίνεις ήλιους και νιώθεις ακόμα κρύος, όλοι σου οι αισθητήρες πάλλονται σαν γάλα στα χείλη τις. Περιμένεις να κοιμηθεί πάλι, να τρυπώσεις στο ζεστό κορμί της, έχεις κρύψει ένα μικρο ξυράφι στο στόμα σου, και πλησιάζεις προσεκτικά στο πρόσωπο της, θέλεις να κόψει κατά μήκος του κάτου χείλους μια γραμμή να κλέψεις λίγο αίμα για τις δικές σου πληγές.

2010-09-09T13:45:00.000+03:00

2010-09-01T01:05:00.005+03:00

Παρατήρησα κάτι, πολλές φορές όταν πέφτω να κοιμηθώ και συνήθως εκεί, βάζω τον αντίχειρα μου μέσα στην παλάμη μου, μέσα στην χούφτα μου, όπως κάνουν τα μωρά, το παρατήρησα να το κάνω και τυχαία στο δρόμο ή μέσα στο μετρό. Γιατί?

Ασημένια μάτια

κόβω τις άκρες τον δαχτύλων μου, τις κορυφές του αποτυπώματος, εκεί που ξεκινάει η σπείρα. Έλα κοιμίσου μαζί μου να με προσέχεις.

Ένα τελευταίο τσιγάρο και θα κοιμηθώ.

Δεν υπάρχουν γράμματα πια, και η καρδιά είναι σαν παιχνίδι.
Θέλω να πιω κάτι να με λυτρώσει, ουίσκι γλυκό δεν υπάρχει νομίζω, η άγνοια σου είναι ηλίθια αλλά εγώ συνεχίζω να ασχολούμαι.

Μαθητευόμενος για πάντα.

Ένα κόκκινο βαθύ ξενοδοχείο, ένα κρεβάτι σαν πληγή, ένα τραγούδι που είναι στο repeat, χυμός μήλου, φωτογραφίες, μισοκαπνισμένα τσιγάρα, ο ανεμιστήρας σκόρπισε τις στάχτες παντού, γυμνός στο παράθυρο, πρωινός καφές για αντίδοτο.
Το να ξεχνάς και να μην σκέφτεσαι, μια αόρατη αναμονή.
Τίποτα.
Άλλη μια τελευταία φορά και θα το κλείσω.
Μου λες γίνεσαι λυπηρός για να σε συμπαθήσουν, ανοίγεσαι και ελπίζεις να συνδεθείς.
Το άρωμα είναι νεκρό και η σπατάλη κόσμημα για τα όνειρα.
Οι πέτρες πάντα ζούνε και το νερό πεθαίνει.

2010-08-31T19:00:00.001+03:00

i have no other
my skin is pale
surrender or suffer
but i can't
escape
your
face

i better die
i better die
before i kill this
it's for tonite
it's for every night
and i can't escape from it

and when you find love
oh
and when you find love
oh
you let it go
you let it go

i have no other
and my heart is torn
i am no hunter
i am no hunt
so i sit here
like an ant
under the sun

and when you find love

you let it go

to be alone

2010-08-03T23:20:00.002+03:00

δεν μ’ άφησες να κοιμηθώ πάλι προχθές
είσαι χειρότερος κι από εφιάλτη
γιατί με κάνεις να σε θέλω

2010-08-01T21:41:00.000+03:00

fuck time
fuck space
fuck everything in motion
fuck everything in place

if it could be only you
then it would be only you
all energy
all matter
all form
nothing to matter
anymore

contempt

2010-07-25T13:27:00.000+03:00

i like you spine
like a vintage dress
like a Polaroid photo
the treasures that hide behind your neck
your perfect teeth
i wish you could bite me
the tigers in your head
the roses trapped in lips
too many thorns to steal your heart
drive the car to the summer's end

2010-07-20T01:11:00.002+03:00

i don't know if i exist
but i'm sure that you do

2010-07-04T19:37:00.000+03:00

of tiredness, the fatuousness, the semi-
lust of intentional indifference.
Be wet
with a decent happiness

-Robert Creeley

yes, yes
that's what
I wanted,
I always wanted,
to return
to the body
where I was born.

--Allen Ginsberg

we have all been brothers, hermaphroditic as oysters
bestowing our pearls carelessly

no one yet had invented ownership
nor guilt nor time

we watched the seasons pass, we were as crystalline
as snow
and melted gently into newer forms
as stars spun round our heads

we had not learned betrayal

our selves were pearls
irritants transmuted into luster
and offered carelessly

our pearls became more precious and our sexes static
mutability grew a shell, we devised different languages
new words for new concepts, we invented alarm clocks
fences loyalty

still...even now...making a feint at communion
infinite perceptions
I remember
we all have been brothers
and offer carelessly

--Lenore Kandel

our stash is in our elbows
our fix is in our heads
god is a junkie and he has sold salvation
for a week's supply

-- Lenore Kandel

2010-07-03T18:22:00.000+03:00

i'm not better
i'm not worse
just tell me what am i doing wrong
my father's burned eyes
and the iron ashes upon his face
what am i doing here?
nothing is real and nothing is exist
we are free, we are free
what is the answer to my questions?
kill every ego, kill every cell
all devotions and all divine
fuck the day, it's always night
fuck the people
define define be fine

2010-07-02T01:05:00.001+03:00

all i need is one hot minute

2010-06-25T10:23:00.000+03:00

let go

let go

you should have done it long ago
all those circles
around and around
you've lost the ground
drained out your heart
your empty mouth
just words no sound

it stops to beat
and there's more to handle
than to feel
your stomack closes to itself
love or hate or love
what there's for you to do?
vacant skin and hollow eyes
bring hope bring death
it's all in your head
i'll drink your water
and smoke your tears away
i'll let you eat me
just to help you breath again
ride the summer away
you'll be ok

2010-06-12T22:45:00.000+03:00

i know death is coming
cause you're waving at me
eat my ego away
you're leaving this
cause you run out of space

if only
we're falling
if only
we're falling

i am a self
inside my body
i have no will to breath
i have no need to feel
and every waking up
is like falling asleep
into a nightmare
i don't care

i'll get drunk
and scream this though
cry my lungs out
and make myself a fool
i don't need love
i just need a song
help me go back home

2010-06-07T22:55:00.001+03:00

your skin is a thousand empty vessels
be drunk and fuck it all
but i don't know a thing
just your grey picture in front of this smoke
the weight of my fingers
the heartbeat of my breath
i'm trying to be alright
don't suffocate

miracle stains
placebo burnings
shake me of myself
push me somewhere
i should just break
you could strip me down
i won't make a sound

2010-06-01T00:14:00.000+03:00

i want to pass through
a dead labyrinth
take up my skin and burn my soul
i'll dream of your lips
and smoke the truth within
closure you open me like a pet
let's kill these statues
defeat the puppet's fake needs

grinding teeth on the streets
no connection at all
relax it's a decease

2010-05-24T00:19:00.000+03:00

sad songs what make you smile when you sing them
comfort comfort and crystal castles that we've build
moonlight soaking wet our lips
at night we show our sins

a sea of charms

i offer my wrist to your teeth
drown me my in your curtains
your orange tongue
i see the hidden razor

smokey eyes
organic reverb distortions
distance blood warm
i dance i think
broken elevator
sink your soul in me

2010-05-23T06:48:00.001+03:00

leave all this behind
you crawled to taste my fingertips
a rapture under my skin
hold me close to your breath
so i won't ever sigh alone

you look so precious

overrated

one word
one climax

stories of a symptom tree
masks you carry for my comfort
i can't seem to crack your face
i want to hunt you
i love it when you bite me
you hate it when i scream

remember when we were young?
the songs you love, they are now yours
the warmth within the quiet singing

chocolate melting between your lips
and your tongue is a treasure
i'm just a piracy
you could be my invasion

it all leads to one thing
salvation

2010-05-22T00:59:00.000+03:00

my new dictators
will be round the corner
holding every fault i've ever made
destoyers are hiding in my blood
all have source but no name
i broke the baby's smile
i'm holding a mirror
do you understand

i have no dots to link together
i have no skin left to shred apart
mother's curtains that keep me safe from the sun
put your milk away, you've grown up

2010-05-21T18:39:00.001+03:00

and so i'm 30 now...

2010-05-20T21:32:00.001+03:00

2010-05-20T21:28:00.003+03:00

your mother's stoned skin

we've burned it,

because she wouldn't fade away

the water the water

ease our broken soul

i'm too easy to break

i.m too hard to heal

fuck it don't care about this

your eyes are satellites for my sun

and your fingers are melting skies

when you touch me

i never knew someone who could ride horses

i have our mother's lips, from the ashes that i've kept

come please and hold your song

i don't care about failing

how long can i hold you?

my neck feels loose

2010-05-08T04:19:00.000+03:00

i forget why was i here for
my fingers are my childhood
when ever i'm burned by fevers
she can't hold my eyes
she can't even see them
strawberry bleeding knees
my breath is shining
the air has colors
i hunt your scent

i hoped for a little bit more inspiration
i blew my mind away
behind loose orange jellyfish suns
i took my role and became your dustsucker
claim your place in my heart

i'm naked now
fifth floor,elementary life
pet my wounds, pet my face
a window for my escapes
open invitation

2010-04-18T18:50:00.000+03:00

i'm just listening to this song, over and over again Nada Surf - Love Goes On (The Go-Betweens)

There’s a cat in the alleyway
Dreaming of birds that are blue
Sometimes girl when I’m lonely
This is how I think about you
There are times that I want you
I want you so much I could bust
I know a thing aboat lovers
Lovers lie down in trust

Love goes on anyway!
Love goes on anyway!

The people next door got their problems
They got things they can’t name
I know a thing about lovers
Lovers don’t feel any shame
Late at night with the lights down low
The candle burns to the end
I know a thing about darkness
Darkness ain’t my friend

Love goes on anyway!
Love goes on anyway!

I’m gonna make you happy
I’m gonna spin you round
I’m gonna cut your strings

I put my foot flat down on the floor
I took it as far as I could
I took it down there to sheridan street
By the dark wood
Late at might when I want you
I lock you in my room
I know a thing about darkness
I know a thing about lovers
I know a thing about lovers
Lovers want the moon

Love goes on anyway!
Love goes on anyway!

2010-04-18T08:10:00.003+03:00

2010-04-18T08:09:00.002+03:00

2010-04-18T06:32:00.000+03:00

the king is sick
lost inside his kingdom
alone without his queen
pretending every smile
every step is a break down
faking his broken knees

γιατί ολα αυτά?

he lost his horse
the crown is rotting on his head
the seasons don't roll by
and there is no light left
leaving letters for his love
inside the ashes of his heart
and hopes for her eyes to meet his words

terrified the king
forgets how to feel well
trebling breathing
trouble sleeping
he keeps falling deeper
colder every night
scentless every breath
blankets rougher
bed harder

nothing matters now

2010-04-16T00:50:00.001+03:00

2010-04-16T00:47:00.001+03:00

2010-04-15T19:42:00.001+03:00

2010-04-15T19:15:00.002+03:00

2010-04-15T00:45:00.007+03:00

the orchid walked silent, an apocalyptic dawn behind her back
her wounds stretched up like red mature wine fields
a worn off truth, bleached inside her eyes
burning a captivity of angst leaking from her shy arms
i saw a notebook, i thought i saw ashes glued together
her cloak of soundscapes, old wings of frequencies
a promise of departures
she took a deep breath, trying to swallow the grey
her eyes opening wide open
her veins lusting for it
you could hear her praying
whispers like spears, digging holes into your world
summoning reverb
ocean's skin

i felt into it, dropping on my knees, trying to catch my breath
i saw my shoulders bleeding and my tears falling
everything is corrupt
i stood up and started to touch everything i could reach
my finger tips were aching scraping for an answer between all of this
i took my cigarettes

you smoke too much, i said to myself

the keys were underneath and the car was waiting

you said: i think this is the sun, the day is coming
i said: it's still dark, it's night outside

you grabbed my hand and put me on the passenger's sit

start the engine please, i said

the mirrors where broken and the compass was lying
i lost my escapes and my traps aren't working
a milking suicide pouring our flags

look, you said

the skyline is burning like a bunch of roses choking on blood
drive away please
you kissed me, and i could taste your heart
we met an exit and drowned into a concrete bath of eternity
a dream or a memory i don't remember

2010-04-14T23:33:00.001+03:00

2010-04-14T22:32:00.000+03:00

i'm unfixable
a fake laughter, a joke to myself
a terrible lie
a distance in between what keeps me intact
fall fall apart
who of you is supposed to keep me safe from harm?
i have no place here
i don't care about time
always someone like you that makes me dream
but then turn their back and leave me alone
to analyze the words
on the floor crashing nostalgias

2010-04-14T01:14:00.001+03:00

i might be wrong

2010-04-12T20:05:00.001+03:00

she came like a sweet depression, a Polaroid set in motion
the old vinyl hid answers, burning stings of drunken explosions
i needed a drive, a stomach with violins and knifes
violent
our hands, mistreated revolutions, sky-less abortions
i lit a strawberry candle behind my eyes
its orange movement with pasted clouds like infinity
the heart's soothing train smoke traveling nowhere
you offered railways, bleached lips of noise
i could hear your blood choking for a kiss
our salvation, a loaded gun of truth, passion

i wanted to bite you till you bleed
till i can taste your whole existence
digging inside your flesh to reach out for your soul
but i know i'll never get near that far
at nights when you sleep
i come by your bed and steal your breath
i collect it into bottles

we crashed and i melted into letters

2010-04-11T19:54:00.001+03:00

i thought for a change i might post an album. I have the idea so long now, but i'm just bored or can't choose an album. Anyway i've uploaded it for a friend of mine, it's impossible to find somewhere on Internet.
I don't care if you give a damn, to download it, listen to it, or whatever. I'm stoned anyways.

Terry Lee Hale - Blue Room

2010-04-11T07:48:00.005+03:00

2010-04-11T07:41:00.001+03:00

2010-04-11T07:22:00.001+03:00

i can't bite the snake
I've lent it all my teeth
where are all the reasons i need?
i'm over bored
and always

the motion is lost
drunken mornings
at the end of some love
it doesn't have a meaning anymore
to turn my couch into a bed
all those pages in my head
fading breath against a starless stain

who will be left to clean the skin?
i can't make a start
don't follows the lines
cut the letters and swallow the bleeding
spit it on these old eyes

2010-04-11T00:37:00.000+03:00

stop staring at the stars
trimming dream
fuck math, fuck love
i need a long walk
fuck you, be my razor
be my lips
be my breath
on my knees

reverse the chorus
burns
soon or later
when the mirrors stop falling
you'll catch me

sex and candy

2010-04-08T10:30:00.001+03:00

2010-04-08T01:49:00.000+03:00

i need a new song to sing
all harmonies die slowly
this hide and seek
destroy everything you need
parallel selfs
empty shelfs
i want to swim into jellyfishes
made from your red lips
at nights i feel safer
scraps of idle hearts and choices
fear
captain of my ugliness

rebirth

just come and take me
i need a long walk

2010-04-08T00:30:00.001+03:00

2010-04-07T23:28:00.003+03:00

2010-04-07T22:53:00.001+03:00

my skin has dropped off
i shouldn't have let go
wasting my time
sins that build our hearts
a hole in my chaos
a tired logic in my head
maybe it's all just my idea
and love will save us
but only makes it worse
home is where the warmth sleeps

mouth to mouth
damaged
your trigger tongue
let me be your target
aim at me

i'm out of reasons to feel well
cigarettes burns my hands
a place in a corner of your neck
close enough to bath in your scent

old
i hate this feeling of searching
ocean's puzzle
tremor confessions
lost in angst

2010-04-06T20:13:00.004+03:00

Μύριζε καπνός.

Μαύρα

Γκρι

Θολά

Πρέπει να ήμουν μεθυσμένος ή μαστουρωμένος, μάλλον και τα δύο.
Ρούμι.

Η πόρτα έγινε από γυαλί. Την άνοιξα, ένιωσα την ζαλούρα μου παντού. Μπήκα μέσα και ήρ8ες ντυμένη με την μαύρη ζακέτα σου. Προσπάθησα να σε διακρίνω, τα μαλλιά σου έπεφταν μπροστά στα μάτια σου. Χάιδεψες το μέτωπο μου να με δεις καθαρά. Ενδορφίνες, μυστικές οσμές, κωδικοποιημένες που αναγνωρίζονται μόνο απ' τους εραστές τους.
-Είσαι σίγουρη;
'Ήμουν εγώ;

Υπότιτλοι.

Στο πρώτο πάντα, τα σώματα δεν ξέρουν ακόμα τις κινήσεις. Μαθαίνετε πάρα πολύ γρήγορα όμως. Θέλεις την ανάσα να γίνει δική σου.

Καπνός

Ζαλούρα

Μοβ

Μουσική

Αγκαλιάζω το πρόσωπο σου με τα χέρια μου, βάζεις τα δικά σου πάνω στα μάγουλα μου. Εκατομμύρια χείλη και φιλιά. Η γεύση σου, το σάλιο, το κόκκινο. Γίνεσαι ένα κομμάτι puzzle, αυτό που έλειπε, αυτό που με συμπληρώνει. Ενώσεις. Ταίριαζες απόλυτα. Ολοκληρώνεται. Δεν είμαστε πλέον άνθρωποι. Έρχεται ο ωκεανός, μπαίνει μέσα μας. Γινόμαστε ένα μαζί του. Κύματα. Σιγή.
Η γεύση σου...

2010-03-27T07:07:00.001+02:00

milkshake and donuts

2010-03-09T01:02:00.005+02:00

Από μικρο παιδί το έχω αυτό, όποτε αρρωσταίνω, πάντα είχα ένα κόλλημα, να φέρνω τις παλάμες μου μπροστά στο πρόσωπο μου, ενωμένες σαν ανοιχτό βιβλίο. Τις κοιτάω, κολλάω, σαν να λάμπουν, άλλα οχι κάποιο λευκό φως, άλλα το δικό τους το χρώμα, αυτό το ανθρώπινο. Όσο κοιτάω άλλο τόσο χάνομαι και οι παλάμες μοιάζουν να μεγαλώνουν, να κλέβουν όλο το ενδιαφέρον μου. Σαν να βυθίζομαι μέσα τους. Δέρμα, αυλάκια, γραμμές, χαρακιές, χρόνος. Μια ύπαρξή απο μονή της, ενα ζωντανό ανεξάρτητο ον. Δεν μένουν ποτέ δίχως παρέα. Τα δάχτυλά, όλα μαζί, μια συντροφιά, αγγίζει το ένα το άλλο.

2010-03-09T00:28:00.002+02:00

2010-02-21T22:06:00.002+02:00

cut your heart
wash it with bleach
glue it back together
and try to breath

2010-02-21T22:04:00.001+02:00

what to do I
what to do I
with myself
i'm a torture
i'm a victim
in my head
all the reasons
all these seasons
down here
for her breath
and the streets
and the walls
and the skies
want to smell like her
i'm not well now
i'm just getting through the day
stupid head
stupid head
i'm this boy
gone away
from his home
i'm a toy
and i'm crawling
tired of begging
stupid girl
stupid girl

2010-02-21T04:58:00.000+02:00

meat meets meat
rather than
soul meets soul
.........................
meat eats meat
untill there is no hope
...............................

my bones, they crack
benith your smile
relapse
a kiss
recess
i'm dying
again again
to love
to hurt
again again
back and forth
remember it's all
just a ride
remember hicks
it'll be alright

2010-02-19T23:16:00.001+02:00

2010-02-19T22:47:00.000+02:00

reinventing new ways
to hurt its other
so much blood
so many tears
if this a game
then you can win by default
the prize is yours

my grey colors
wasting away
rotting inside my sighing
hopeless my every breath
hiding my break down
behind endless cigarettes

i try to swallow
the knots in my neck
the bitterness
the sadness
that rule in my head
i fall and collapse
i stand up but i crash
do you understand?

2010-02-19T00:34:00.000+02:00

put a shotgun in my mouth
your pearls around my neck

collapsing
i can't turn numb
i can't turn numb
i can't turn numb

i need a kingdom
an empire to destroy
false lines
that take space

2010-02-18T06:10:00.000+02:00

d
e
a
d

2010-02-18T05:11:00.000+02:00

life is waves
a series of tides

...not saved

2010-02-18T04:29:00.000+02:00

i look to the empty cracked sky
my stomack is a storm
and my neck an acking lock
i don't care i fall i fall
i can't sleep
my bed is a dead river
with thorns made of tears
forget forgive unforgiven
matchbox became burning oceans
so what's left for me?
all the blame all the guilt
all that could have been
i'm no good
i'm exhausted
i'm no good
i'm defect
i'm no fun
i'd rather be dead

2010-02-18T04:13:00.000+02:00

the desert
the ocean
the patience
the temper
the baby
the warmth

sharks and storms

all this hurts
my lonely bones
in this cold city
all turns wrong

cut my throat please
cut it deep
cut whatever you want
and let me bleed
i'm just tired of all of this

an empty vessel
full of...

2010-02-16T23:27:00.003+02:00

moist lips
down to your hips
a broken crow on your hands
a crown of morning wishpers in your head
come here up high
to watch the clouds go by

i miss the summer dawns
the quietness of the whole
i am a destroyer
i am a weaklin
all for your interest

i can't breath the way they do
i can't feel the way they want me to
cut my throat

don't think your not in here
you push me and i like it
so serious this shelter
marshmellow breath

2010-02-08T23:08:00.000+02:00

your wrists, slip from your hands
i hear you heart, fucked up transmission
it's old skin, you don't need it anymore
so far away for a sonic love
pick it up and hold it tight
for all your tides

we need you, they said
your evil makes us
but the guilt in your head
won't let you rest
what't the role?
you forget...

let go let in
fall inside
i stole your lipstick the other day
i hope you don't mind
but when you find it out
please come down and chase me
i'll buy you ice-cream
to melt your tears

2010-02-05T21:31:00.000+02:00

learn to disconnect
all those strings just make you acke
the cold reverbs, sailors of tears
your eyes are burning angel wings
and your red dress steals my fears away
find importance
find an entrance
honeywine down my throat
but i can only think of you
and it makes me even worse
shivering sun in my bedroom
just another truth

2010-02-01T22:59:00.000+02:00

a face old and tired
hurry hurry get in the bus
and fight for a place to sit
her cold ugly feet
sockless winter
how ugly
sucrifice your health for a piece of beauty
these people have no eyes left
all scared
massmedia murder roles
how polite
all this fakeness it doesn't always bother me
but i can't always pretend
terror
love

worms
worms
worms

2010-01-31T18:23:00.001+02:00

2010-01-31T18:18:00.000+02:00

i'm trying to stop
the transfixions
emulation after emulation
we want war
masters of our own extinction

2010-01-27T00:10:00.000+02:00

life at these speeds
the grey
drive away
mass murders
the illusion of choice
all this noise
overwhelming
posters are the new bibles
thiefs of the underground
trends everything
follow follow
the cows the sheep
are you a friend
are you an enemy
life at these speeds
ignore everything with a spirit within

2009-12-19T04:37:00.001+02:00

Nirvana - Gallons Of Rubbing Alcohol Flow Through The Strip

It hurts when you have to press that dull little thing
That you're only supposed to use once and then discard
Where do you put it? In the garbage can, my honest friend
My shyness, pet her flow

She's only been five months late, even though we haven't had sex for a week

A meal a day, a meal, I say
And my heart's made my ...

Somebody else already used the word 'aurora-borealis'
She was tied up in chains, and Sam had helped her in the freezer

She's only five weeks late, but I haven't had a date forever ...
Ever ... ever ... forever!

Wish I had more ... more opportunity,
More chances to remember some things
So I couldn't have so much pressure on my ...
On my ... on my, um ... ah, on my ... um ... um ... head

We'd have so much more diversity,
And so much more input, so much more creative flow,
If we had someone in school, a 'GIT' ...

GIT ... geeks ... in ... town.
Ha! ... Come on, Dave, think of one ... !
- Girls with trouble
It should be GIC, geeks with charvels
No, GWC, fuck man this is a waste of time ...

{laughs}

One more solo? Yeahhhhhhhhh! Yeaaaahhhhh!

You're ... personally responsible for, uhh ...
The entire strip ... to be washed away ...
Cleansed ... as if gallons of, um, rubbing alcohol
Flowed through the strip and were set on fire.

It didn't just singe the hair, it made it straight.
And then Perry Ellis came along with his broom,
And his ... silk ...
And he ... he erected a beautiful city ...
A city of stars.

2009-12-12T04:34:00.000+02:00

let go let go let go
the distance is important
your mistakes are truths
rename the flash light
your skin's so smooth
i'm the dancing the silence
my echoes are burning
in your mouth i'm just ashes
the colours are turning
last drop of blood crashing

keep reminding myself...

clouds are storming
day by day
i keep making the same mistakes

from bitter to numb
from less to enough
from sinking to floating
from crying to hoping

lounges capture the misery
the weight of sighing
noone is chasing me
but i'm running away
get over this
i'm over this

i've come to an end
and now i realise
i've become my own chaser
i taste my own ashes
nothing is save
i'm hunting my heart down
i dont care about guns
i'm all out of emotions
i just want to feel the sun

2009-12-06T14:57:00.000+02:00

i'm still waiting for a messenger
a kind of salvation
an anchor of a lover's kiss
i'm open to your piracy

slow rain
hollow windowpane
tricks to blur the pain
3 stages end game

the line leads to dead ends
the rivers in your hands
above this wrecked ship
seagulls try to sing
dusty lullabies for you to sleep
the sheets tear your skin
naked souls need
a burning compassion
to kill the cold atrophy
that hides within

2009-11-29T21:43:00.001+02:00

invasion after invasion

i'm lost in this cities sea

to be someone's temptation

to be someone's reflection

i wish you could see

an empty bedroom

new snakes for old gloom

a quiet peacefull moment

take a deep breath

only triggers

only traps

skin

heart

2009-11-24T14:29:00.002+02:00

at the bottom of hearts
hides a blind snake
with a lust for betraying
to suck from your beloved ones
a tongue armed with scissors
and a list of names to choose
it tricks your secret mirrors
to tells lies and never truths
it's not always this the case
but it seems as an escape
the tables turn
and you lose their trust
they hurt as much
you should never had heard
what the snake wishpered
in your swarm, your body falls
and your eyes tear from tears
your lungs crash
solitude

2009-11-12T00:25:00.000+02:00

a map in your head
an empire in your bag

2009-11-10T09:28:00.000+02:00

Sonic Youth

2009-11-09T19:33:00.001+02:00

i'm not fine
fuck pretending

2009-11-08T20:37:00.000+02:00

i'm simplifying myself
cause you're too complicating

2009-11-01T03:19:00.001+02:00

be quiet now
let go
these things are not for you
be quiet now
you can't hear me cause i'm whispering
dead on the floor
but it doesn't matter
i stood still but nothing changed
i danced around but then you came
and i felt down and broke my neck
hey don't worry i'll be alright
cause it's just a ride
now be quiet
i've walked too much again
and i'm tired as a beating heart
beaten half to death
i don't care now
silence blood
i quit

2009-10-30T23:16:00.001+02:00

believe in nothing and you might get through with it
cause believing in love believing in faith didn't bring us much
take a look a round

yes
i am a negative creep
and i love you all

wait edit

did i mean that ?
why do i bother myself?
with all of you
i should just be alone instead
fuckheart fuckheart fuckheart

leave alone the hopes and the dreams
if i could just undress these words
they would stand naked
for they are only razors that cut
turn numb and you turn happy
just get me for once...

2009-10-28T03:08:00.001+02:00

goddamn it open your eyes and hear!!!